Sad

It is very very sadden when everything just gone wrong...

What am I supposed to do...

What will be our future like? What am I doing right now? Am I wasting my time? Am I doing the right thing? What am I supposed to do?

I have to decide, decide on where to go…

I cant waste my time just like this…

The feeling is very confused...

I need to find a way out…

I have to go…really gotta go…

Currently listening to...

~I want to Know What Love is-Foreigner~

Happy Chap Goh Mei-Happy Chinese V-day

I know I have to settle something very important, something to do with my future, something very urgent....but somehow I came over and here I am to share with you some recent thoughts that have in my mind that had accumulated for quite sometime already....(under extremely sleepy condition)

Gotta submit some urgent design work on tomorrow morning...somehow, I don't really feel the stress anymore, for as long as the confidence is there... I have very good feeling in my workplace recently...I feel there are more works coming and we can grow!as in bigger and stronger...and especially the relationship between the colleague grow better and more lovely...ouh, please forget about those annoying people...its their nature that we can no longer give'em advices..

Not sure if it was due to the weather or working in a fully air conditional room, I have suffered from chapped craked peeling lips. It comes on and off, and sometimes it was painful and feel very uncomfortable. Haven't got a time to buy an onitment yet...been very busy these day. Do you know that working in Singapore can be quite fun sometimes? I like the night lighting especially after meeting at night...walking in the night...feels the cold breeze...some area can be very lovely and beautiful! yes...of course, provided that someone is able to bring us there;) I still love the night I spent at Sentosa watching the Songs of the Sea...though the session was very short, but I really enjoyed it and will treasure the moment in my mind forever. Its Chap Goh Mei today, and what people used to call the Chinese Valentine's Day...Well, how you spent the last day of Chinese New Year 2011? Burning some gold paper for the God and do some praying? Dating at a high class restaurant? Working very hard until forgotten your dinner?...I spent my good day in workplace, and had a late meeting at a Japanese company with my colleague, and had a very warm good simple dinner at Crystal Jade La Mian XLP, its near to Lucky Plaza. I am feeling goooooood:) so do you?

Ouh yes...talk about my GM!You!yes...you! you are marvellous...you can know everything and you just so expert in everything...kind, soft-hearted, caring, patience, top, low profile...how can I be like you?! I have meet alot of different kind of people in my life...some are bad, tricky, thrifty, but some are very good, thoughtful, admiring...you are extremely uniquely gooood! will learn from you the best I can...really pray and wish there are more people like you! he care very much for the staff, and jokes with us, treated us in every single meal, cuts fruit in the office! get along pretty well with us and count my blessing, am very close with him...and so I learn really alot from him...from engineering to psychology, from food to live optimistically...just about everynthing....God bless :) Its really a blessing to have meet this kind of people...almost extinct species!

I do (Cherish you)--am listening to this song...very peaceful...feeling upmost gratitude...thank you the blessing from my parents, my sister...thank you and for those who come into my life...Thank God for answering my prayers...

I hereby wish everyone...Have a Good GOOOD year ahead and do not turn yourself down when you encounter some problem...always pray and believe in God. He does exists...

+~The harder you work, the luckier you become~+

Random Sweet Dreams

I had one last night...a very sweet one but somehow annoying...

This guy hold my hand and we were at the escalator...I tried to let go...but he hold my hand very tightly and refused to let go...said:aiya...our colleague will see la...lolx...deng...he has a very smooth hand..right...its just a dream :)

Went for a meeting last night...and dragged until very late...we almost secure the job!Hopefully yea...went for Pizza after that with my gm...what an exhausted night but good good night.

Veggie Lover

Lunch at a vegetarian restaurant near Jurong Bird Park with GM CH and M Jimmy

Working with Anger

Do you believe in karma?

Yes, I definitely believe in it.

First, let's look at what we did in this life to encounter others who treat us poorly. How did we get into this situation? What did we do that aggravated the other person and made him act this way towards us? We must be very honest with ourselves. Maybe we really weren't so innocent. Maybe we were trying to manipulate the other person and he didn't fall for it. He got upset and so we play hurt and offended. But in fact, our own behaviour brought the situation about.

By being introspective, we'll notice our faults and can correct them. The we won't find ourselves in such unpleasant situations in the future.

This means we take responsibility for being in that situation, regardless of whether or not the other person is making an indue fuss. By acknowledging our mistakes or wrong motivations, we'll become aware of how our behaviour affects other people. By avoiding destructive behaviour in the future, we won't activate others to harm us.

That's looking at what we did in this lifetime to trigger the event. Let's now look from a broader viewpoint, over the course of many lifetimes. This brings in the topic of karma, which is the intentional actions. Our actions leave imprints on our consciousness. These imprints later ripen and influence our experiences.

What we experiences now is a result of what we have done in previous lifetimes...I can tell that not many of you who are reading this believe in this isn't it? Let's say someone is beating is, this signifies that in previous lives we have harmed others. To experience that effect now, we must have done something previously. Karma- action and its result is like a boomerang. We throw it out and it comes back to us. Similarly, if we treat others in a certain way, we put that energy into the universe- and it comes back to us later.

Understanding this allows us to accept responsibility for the situation.

May the joy always be with you

Imagine writing an email of what you want to the Universe. When you are happy that your email is very clear, you hit "Send" and you know your request has gone into the ethers. You also know that the Server of the Universe is an automatic system, and it doesn't question email requests. Its job is simply to fulfil every request.
If you begin to worry and stress that you haven't got what you wanted, then you have just sent another email to the Universe to stop your order. And then you wonder why you haven't received what you asked for.
Once you Ask, know that the Server of the Universe is an automatic infallible system that never fails, and expect to receive your request!

May the joy be with you

Every day, or at the very least once or twice a week, take a few minutes and focus on seeing yourself in joy. Feel yourself in joy. Imagine only joy ahead in your life and see yourself basking in it. As you do this the Universe will move all people, circumstances, and events to bring you that joy. You can't be in joy if you have money worries, or health worries, or relationship problems with friends or family. So deposit some joy in the bank of the Universe as often as you can. There isn't an investment that is more worthwhile.

Rhonda Byrne

A time for myself

Went for few meeting with three of my bosses this afternoon, met up with the company CEO and some other engineers and project manager. We had a grand lunch at Lagun Club, the dinning hall is just right besides the huge lake, very beautiful golf coast scence. It is tough for a newbie like me to mingle in with their strange conversation topic, current issues...etc. I think what a fresh graduate must do the moment they step into working world is to make sure be alert and study people's personality, foresee something that is going to happen, have sometime for yourself to do meditation. With these, we can actually remember every event we carried out everyday very well, especially whatever we said, think, learn and hear-improve your memory.

To survive in a fiercely competitve job market, one need to be extremely alert and have a very good memory. With these two, I personally think one would have no issue in getting a position with good pay.

Listening to my favourite music...while making my personal daily diary...feel very peaceful and filled with gratitude...am gonna attend a course this few days, very glad that company is so generous to pay such a huge sum of money in investing their people...

Its incredible...

-Unforgettable-Frank Sinatra-

-I Love You For Sentimental Reasons-Nat King Cole-

Thank You once again-My Graduation

I feel so proud for my family, my dad, my mum and my only sister. They've brought me to who I am now...I am proud of my university, I must thank you my lecturers, my professors, my faculty dean...and lastly, thank you my friends. Without each and everyone of you, there will be no Sin Mei. I am so touch when mom secretly put the red packet under my phone, sis sacrified her annual leave for me, and dad book the hotel 1 month earlier before my graduation. So so Thankful.

It was a very tiring day on the 9,10 and 11 Oct 2010, but at the same time will be the most important and meaningful day I will never forget in my life. It's my degree graduation!

Waking up at 4.30am for the entire 3 days was really exhausting. Landmark hotel doesn't provide very good services, I'll say you better book Catherina hotel instead! 9 Oct 10, Vice Chancellor Award Ceremony. It was held at the Examination Hall, F2, it was a shame not to meet those who suppose to attend, they prefer to work (the reason is that they work half day on Sat and get a full day pay!) and that they do not have to apply unpaid leave, so they were absence. Anyway, mum and dad are really proud cause they managed to sit with both the Deputy Vice Chancellor! It was so great to see my name appeared on the list and its written "VIP 1" table :D which mean there will be people serving food for us instead of taking it all yourself (its buffet). The food were so excellent-nasi briyani! - one of my fav's.

10-10-10 Sunday

This is the first day of convocatio, only for PhD graduates, Masters, DPLI and Special award graduates. I was awarded Chancellor Award and recieving it from our Sultan Johor. All the graduates have to register themselve, prepare and wait at the Lecture Hall 2 (DK2). It is because Sultan Johor was giving out the award, we were all told to say "Menjunjung Kasih Tuanku" and makesure we 'Keksi", both are a must! Later then we queue and move to the DTII Hall. When the time come, my name was mentioned very loud and clear and it is the first name called out-I was panic! I do not know why and how, I never do both the MUST to do that we were all told. All the graduates did that except me! gosh...when I heard my name, my mind go blank, totally...haha it was so bad isn't it?

Thanks Wan Mei for attending it on our first day!:D

Then the next day...

11-10-10

I told myself I must remember to do it this time and it was our Pro Chancellor this time. Luckily I did all I suppose to :) Few sms wishes was sent to my mobile, one is from a very strict, very fierce, very responsible lecturer, Mr Adanan, and the other one I could remember was from my boss. Later then some lecturer called up and also friends who never forget me;) Thanks yea!

Thank you Suan, your the very first friend I met when I come out from the hall (its really crowded)

The afternoon...

Dato has been sooo kind to organised a Homecoming Program at RECESS to welcome us and our family members for a grand lunch I'll say. The food-Thumbs up! Thank you Dr Lee for calling and joined us for the meal.

Left: Ah Jie, me, Mom, Dato' Ismail, Prof. DC, Assoc. Prof. Lee, and dad.

Kent and I-Thanks for coming buddy!

Best IAI London partner! with AMI.

UTHM Civil Engineering Graduates

Prof DC, me and Dato Ismail at Recess

Why still single?

When people asked me why are you still single? and my answer will somehow be as simple as i want to be single and freedom...but when I think deeply, actually mature one are hard to find ;)

How to you find your works are interesting?

It is very rare for people to like working, some, or perhaps most work for the sake of money....well, I am one of them of course:P but think of the other way, when you like something in the office, eventually you'll like to go to work, cause you're looking forward to see it, or maybe him/her, your colleagues or even your bosses. Some might have love their work just because they like the work itself (very very extremely rare)....Hmm...I'm getting used to my working environment already, my females' colleagues are all very nice and good to me, not the guy. So in my department, there are only 3 gals including me, the rest are all men. Work with 7 bosses, there are just too awesome, there's once when I work late and he offer to send me back, reach right infront of my house! and then the next day, one of the bosses bring me and my colleage for a site visit, also bring us to try some nice food!....Just last Saturday, I've already planned to go back home, and the bus pick up point is really far from my work place(it took 1 1/2 hours), so they allow me to join them for another site visit, and after that send me to the bus terminal....very nice man uh!:D I never met bosses that always care for the staff. When the first time work in oversea, totally strange place, my boss give me all the informations I needed, such as what type of phone card I gotta buy to make cheaper phone call to home, what type of cab to take to go back hometown...drive me back instead of stopping at the nearby station like other people did...making sure I am safe returning home by asking the staff to send me home even tho' they can't manage to...:) I feel very glad to work under him. I like my work because of you. Thank you!

~We work for you not because we are afraid of you, but we respect you~

p.s.: this is actually the security guard from my university told me, he respect our ex-vice chancellor alot(Prof. Dato Dr Ismail Bin Hj. Bakar)

End of the Road

I don't know how and why, somehow when I listen to this song i think of a friend, and i miss those day we were in the uni:)

I like this song so much:)

...its by Boyz II Men...

(spoken)Girl you know we belong together

I have no time for you to be playing

With my heart like this

You’ll be mine forever baby,

you just see

(verse)

We belong together

And you that I’m right

Why do you play with my head,

Hy do you play with my mind?

Said we’d be forever

Said it’d never die

How could you love me and leave me

And never say good-bye?

Girl I can’t sleep at night without holding you tight

Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry

Pain in my head oh I’d rather be dead

Spinnin’ around and around

Chorus:

Although we’ve come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,

You just don’t realize

You’ve never been there before

It’s only your first time

Maybe I’ll forgive you, hmm

Maybe you’ll try

We should be happy together

Forever, you and i

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before

This time I want you to love me much more

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me, don’t let me down

Chorus(spoken)Girl I’m here for you

All those times of night when you just hurt me

And just run out with that other fella

Baby I knew about it, I just didn’t care

You just don’t understand how much I love you do you?

I’m here for you

I’m not out to go out and cheat on you all night

Just like you did baby but that’s all right

Hey, I love you anyway

And I’m still gonna be here for you ’till my dying day baby

Right now, I’m just in so much pain baby

Coz you just won’t come back to me

Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)

Yes baby my heart is lonely

(lonely)

My heart hurts baby

(lonely)

Yes I feel pain tooBaby please

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me go

Chorus

Chorus (a cappella)

p.s.: and...I let it go...wish you'll be there for my convocation ceremony on the 10th...

My days in office

"WOW"....thats what I wanna say about my new company. First thing is-rich(yeah, to me yes, even the pen i used are all branded, mostly Pilot, eraser are made from Germany, good quality sticker, whatever you want, just take, and all brand new:D:D and just today, office came one middle size dispenser, it contained of white coffee, my fav milo, and milk tea. Do not need to mention about the IT thing, all high tech, HP prof laptop, ordered brand new logitech wireless mouse for me, company transportation provided everyday, pick up point from mrt station. It is just too wow! In fact, there will be a Bowling tournament at the end of this month, competition held at Jurong Point, among a group of 2 male and 1 females from different department, HR, ground engineering, marine engineering department and so on...winners would be awarded 200 dollars each, that is what i recieved from the mail and company advertisement!argh, i missed out the females football tournament last month! They even have different type of game competition in the company!I wish the badminton one come in next month!!

Mrt service is down on tomorrow for certain area, but guess what, I am sure not all people are aware of this, so there are some gov servant, i guess, distributing the broucher at the exit, like when we swap out the card from mrt station and kept on reminding the people about this matter. They are really concern about the nation. Needless to mention about Malaysia, not because it is big, London is bigger...the different between these 2 countries is only the people-asian and white, and the weather, else, there make no different to stay in England or Singapore. Argh, one more thing, you dont really see people reading in the mrt in S'pore, but in London tube, you dont see people talking, but reading! they have people giving out press, magazine for free at the entrance of the tube and kept on saying ' please read', so these are a few diff I can judge throughout my stay in S'pore and London. There are more to say though, I'll post up more later.

Ielts results out today, I am okay with the results, in fact it is out of my expectation, am very glad to have high score in section where I dont expect it to be. Somehow, speaking section was the worse one for me though I thought it should be the best one.:( a lil dissapointed for this. By the way, still wanna congrate my frends who scored good results:) and cheers for those who do not.

Anxiety

2 more days to go, and im gonna leave home for a totally new environment already. Working in a new strange place without own transportation is really a challenge to me. Having to learn t0 use the public transportation is one matter, forcing myself to wake up 6 a.m. everyday is really a serious matter! I doubt my ability to work 6 days a week and 9 hours a day...its hard, tough. But then think it the other way, its gonna be nice meeting up with new colleagues, having to walk less than half miles to mrt station and food court for dinner, gather with coursemate from university, sitting in the coffee shop after working hour, hit the sack before 10 p.m., earning stipend with currency exchange rate of 2.3....its gonna be great!

Attended an international english test last couple of days in Corus Hotel and British Council, and it went well. Just a lil bit scary was when taking the reading paper, in fact, it has 40 questions to be done in 60 mintues, you have to do skimming, able to scan and take the main point in a very short time, 3 passages with more than 1000 words each. In the beginning of the third passage, I was caught with cold, bad running nose! I cant really focus until they announced we still have 20 minutes left, nevertheless I managed to finish it on time. Thank God. Guess what? I am still having the cold, bad cold and cough even though had taken 12 capsules of Carinox. ):

I am leaving soon...and Im going to miss home real bad...time spent with mom and dad and sis was precious...:')

Way to go...

I was in Selangor last week, accompanied by mum and stay in sis's house. For the sake of preparing myself for the exam which is gonna be held on 21 August. Have you ever imagine that you are going to write again the english essays in 40 minutes for 250 words and 20 minutes for a 150 words at least? Those has been ages for me...am a lil regret to pay for this exam now as I have limited time in preparing for it...:( jz pray for the best..God bless me and everyone:)

~do not have to worry about things that can be done, whilst there's no point to worry for things that cannot be done~