End of the Road

I don't know how and why, somehow when I listen to this song i think of a friend, and i miss those day we were in the uni:)

I like this song so much:)

...its by Boyz II Men...

(spoken)Girl you know we belong together

I have no time for you to be playing

With my heart like this

You’ll be mine forever baby,

you just see

(verse)

We belong together

And you that I’m right

Why do you play with my head,

Hy do you play with my mind?

Said we’d be forever

Said it’d never die

How could you love me and leave me

And never say good-bye?

Girl I can’t sleep at night without holding you tight

Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry

Pain in my head oh I’d rather be dead

Spinnin’ around and around

Chorus:

Although we’ve come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,

You just don’t realize

You’ve never been there before

It’s only your first time

Maybe I’ll forgive you, hmm

Maybe you’ll try

We should be happy together

Forever, you and i

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before

This time I want you to love me much more

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me, don’t let me down

Chorus(spoken)Girl I’m here for you

All those times of night when you just hurt me

And just run out with that other fella

Baby I knew about it, I just didn’t care

You just don’t understand how much I love you do you?

I’m here for you

I’m not out to go out and cheat on you all night

Just like you did baby but that’s all right

Hey, I love you anyway

And I’m still gonna be here for you ’till my dying day baby

Right now, I’m just in so much pain baby

Coz you just won’t come back to me

Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)

Yes baby my heart is lonely

(lonely)

My heart hurts baby

(lonely)

Yes I feel pain tooBaby please

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me go

Chorus

Chorus (a cappella)

p.s.: and...I let it go...wish you'll be there for my convocation ceremony on the 10th...

Eerie

i dun have time to blog but i must say this....

I have been rather busy for completing the thesis, assignment, projects, homework...and now am quite not in the mood to care for other stuff already...while i was so busy with all this stuff, there's these guys, strange guys who txt me and asked to go out for this and that...kinda like a date? ouh please, i just dont understand why these people are soooo darn free to 'patoh' in uni, i dont even have enough time for a proper meal, even when i was eating or sometime watching cartoon, my mind was thinking of my research! its annoying...i just dont used to say 'no' yet. (im learning hard)....so forgive me if i find excuses to hint u for the word 'no'...i wish you ppl werent here tonight! stay away from me please!!!!

Dreams

TOok a long nap this afternoon. I dream of a person, the one very close to me, no idea why u appeared in my dream,never thought of you before i sleep as we were too close.....from the moment i fall asleep till the moment i wake, the entire story was all bout me and you. haha...that was funny. my table and bed in the dorm was shift back to the old place which i do not really like it.(It moved itself). When i open the door, find it has another one to open and then i saw a place where it is completely strange, and i shut then open again, there go another scene...you pull me out and said lets see whats the place look like, then we explored...now there were 3 of us...and suddenly you hold my hand, not a tight one but you trying hard not to let it go...we were all alone now and clinging to each other, very sweet....and we went into a museum...its iron bridge museum how cool!...then you kept holding my hand as we walked, its embarrassing but you seems ok with it...and its so warm, my fingers were all freezing. Then we returned to the door, back to the dorm, and i was studying now, you were besides me...and i fall asleep again, you lean your head towards mine, we were so close that i can hear you were listening to Doin' Just Fine.

p.s.: It was so sad that you weren't that thoughtful and sweet in real. In fact, you were too cold towards me that we can hardly have a conversation.

Wish could have that Magic door.

Doin' Just Fine

1. Had the breakfast there, had the lunch there, had some KFC packed back for dinner, everyone has already in the hall except me, rushed there with my laptop on, all of you were watching me, about 50 of you, listening to me, and couple of days later, some of you met me and called my name, 'hi sinmei' and gave me a strange smile and somehow i felt you treated me the different way as before, I am glad.

2. You choose me instead of her, you need me and we had a good chat at night, I am glad you are here with me. I have to really appreciate this moment.

3. You were sick, I am so sorry I didnt know that. I hope your ok now and I am sure you are.

4. I am sad because you dint know how important you are to me. I hope you will never know, its contradicting.

5. I will be strong and work hard, but I am just lazy.

6. As long as doin' just fine, I will pull through.

Listing

I realised that its been a practice since I came back to campus. Due to my well arranged schedule by the faculty, I've few hours free in the morning, so every early morning, before running for some places; I would sit down infront of my desk and starts listing on the Post-it to make sure I've done the whole activities listed for each day. Its been keeping me well organised and the best and happy moment is when I came back to room, before prepare for the next day...the entire activities have been carried out and no any delay.

Try to list out things before you forget and make sure you carry out each activity, it is really encouraging to see you've accomplished without delaying your works.

Day without preparation

Morning class went pretty good, the subject's chapter one is exactly the same as one of the subject in last semember. :)

I was asked to join in one of the meeting with my supervisor, the faculty deputy dean and assoc Prof Lee from Structural department this morning after my class. It was freaking good as in we were provided breakfast during the meeting, an informal one tho'. Somehow i gained something from this meeting, the topic they discuss is all about the university's project, one of the project that are having the memorandum of understanding with Sibu, peat research in Sarawak. As i said im not prepare for anything for this sudden not knowing what the meeting is all about, I was asked: How many population is there in London now?" gosh im stuned cause not knowing whats the actual figure....11M? btw,I realised that the way they construct the meeting are really different with how students constructed theirs. Its way different and way better. Pretty sad that i came across this that students could not still construct a proper meeting. We shall learn from them in the very first place before stepping into the real working world.

So again, im staying back in the campus for the sake of a meeting held at this hour, 9pm! else i would have like 'went' back home already. Yes, im going back home tomorrow! and im going to some places during this weekend for some destressing and avoiding the unhappy moment that disposed me to melancholy over here. sounds pretty sad huh?hope i'll pull through all this one day before the ending of the semester.

Still...you will notice my vexation due to my fyp, report...and u know what.

p.s.:i knew why im so prone to be bitten by the mosquitoes already....
and just to share with you: bath early or like before 6pm to avoid arthritis.its bad when you grow older.

Gonna be a busy day...my thoughts...

Went to Library this early morning

Went to city to meet a friend for notes

Went to friends house to leave my things there

Went to the dentist clinic to clean the teeth

Packing things up

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Going to hostel's office to sign for confirmation

Going to faculty for a meeting

Going to Recess for fyp

Going to have lunch

Going to friends house to return the book

Going to meet supervisor

Going to clear the room

Going to have dinner

Going to sleep...:)

I'm leaving this place soon, 4 years in the campus, you eat, you drink, you chat, you study, you listen, you read, you argue, you fight, you angry, you cried, you sad, your heart-broken, you talk bad bout ppl, you gossip, you sleep, you wee, you sweat, you fall, you bang the wall/column, you shout, you performed, you smile, you yawned in the class, you sneezed, you sick, you make friends, you teach, you socialized, you attached, you crashed, you did so much things you cant even imagined in the university...the footprints you made will never vanish in the air, it will stucked there for life, even if your no longer in the universe, you mean to the university. No matter how badly you do, you performed, you carry the name of the university, and no matter how weak, not-popular the university is, there must be someone who secceed, stepped out the university and become a well-known person or someone who contribute to the country with the knowledge one gained in the university. So, who are we? The university want us, and we need the university...

Its all about the day

I dont feel quite well after had my lunch today, my heart's beeping faster and faster and i have difficulty in breathing.....what's wrong with me?

Thought that I've done reading for tomorrow's paper, of course not all :P I've skipped one chapter which i think it's gonna be tough and hmm...not so well recommend to answer tho', yes, and what's what?! they said that chapter will definitely out in final! uh...hmm...and yes, i'm kinda tensed up a lil now, i gotta read back all and weird thing i dont feel the paper is gonna be tough...at least it is not as difficult as the previous year questions.

So im room now, and onlining, know that having a paper on tomorrow i shouldnt go online...thats the principle rule lol...break it off, who cares!

Relax la....;)

Listening to: Do You Feel Me by Anthony Hamilton

Its finally Exam week, and its NOV now!

I've been hoping so much for Nov to come, and yes, finally...:D but still having a last, very last project which we haven done....argh...so much released...went back home the evening after our last test on Friday and its strange that when i was rushing back to home thru the old road in BP, it was hell jam and was stucked there for half an hour, its late, i remembered its already 7pm, well i dont usually drive at night tho'. So i made a u-turn and decided to use the highway!(very first time) hehe

JB or KL? (Thanks Wee Teck you remind me!wahaha, i wanted to go in the JB gateway at first!kinda blur tho')

Hah...one thing best being at home is you get to eat mum's cook! awesome!...its all vege!wahaha....which is wut i like the most=) thanks mum!

ouh and the soup! plus ready cut orange from mom:D:D

The next day we went for having some high tea near to 'KL', Kota Laksamana, and we just realised its a night market day, then i spotted this stall, YAO ZHA KUAI! argh....another of my fav'!

Bought too much and cant finish'em...anyone?lol

And this morning, went for window shopping, MP's front entrance was closed for renovation!i just get to know...means how long i never back home alry?!terrible...

Went and visit grandparents and 3rd auntie, some relatives has back too so we went for a small reunion at a vege restaurant in Batu Berendam. the food there...hmm...good serving, fast but somehow...it tastes awfully!

lol...anyway...its was great and really great being at home...i can hardly imagine one didnt back home for months esp students like in Sabah and Sarawak stuyding in Peninsular Malaysia or the other way round....i really gotta thank God for all the blessing:)

ouh and har...dad's gonna fetch me back to campus tomorrow morning for a meeting...i gotta go on bed already...Happy studying people...Good luck for the final exam and the meeting, too:D

Orchestra Tee UTHM has finally done

For the orchestra members, you can collect your tee as soon as u can already....its finally done:D im glad its as expected tho'. many thanks to my friends and Wei Kwang=)

A Snack with Dr. Chan and Friends.

Kinda tensed up tho' to meet her actually, but supprisingly she was really good! haha she treated me, the master and phd students a snack, or perhaps I called it late lunch. Pn. Azeanita joined us later on. All sorts of things we chat, from plant to fish, from books to cb(cirit-birit)-diarrhea, funny stuff i shall said. hmm...i shall reconsidered bout the degree of my tension stress, how high can i sustain...or should i considered to set a minumun of my stress level.wahaha....i looked tension?

Dr. Chan and Pn. Azeanita

From left:Phd student, Ms Toh, Master students Sze Shan and Bee Ling

Done with the PSM 1 presentation

I AM GLAD! and I AM HAPPY!

Frankly, I did all the reading, searching from net, printing, reading...and almost used up a rim of A4 paper in 4 days before the presentation. Dont have the appetite, dont drink much water, even forget to shower!lol..just staring at the reference book, technical paper, seminar paper...though sometime dont even understand what's it all about!haha....

After few days of dreadful preparation....it finally came this morning. The title of my research is "Compressibility Characteristics of Remoulded Soft Soil". It is a really challenging title for me, totally blur on what should do at first...one thing to overcome this problem is to read more on the paper done by previous researchers, ask youself why you want to do the research? how are you going to do?where?what are the outcomes...then by that, you'll be familiar with your topic already.

What i wanna share here is, what are the questions asked by my panels (Dr. Chan Chee Ming, Mr. Zulkifli, & Mr. Nasir) this morning:
1. What stress you will applied on your samples?
2. How do you carry out the Liquid Limit test?what are the parameters you will obtained?
3. What is slurry?- Its LIQUID! remember this. and the liquid limit:can be MORE THAN the LL.
4. References-must be (surname, year)!
5. Have you ever find out that other researchers has done some similar topic with yours?
6. Do more reading on topic that relevant to yours...international journal on xxx.
7. more and i cant really tell here cause its very specific to my title.

Anyway...GOOD LUCK to those who haven done theirs...you can do it!!
Best of luck and all the best!:D

Farewell Ms. Balkis-the best lecturer i ever met!

WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

and your gonna miss alot alot...

We WISHES U all the very best in Ireland:D

Carnival PKSK

Finally end the dreadful week...done the most critical test last night, wanted to stress out bit so i went to the carnival pksk closing ceremony. Students were performing, and what impressed me the most is the fireworks!!!how awesome!you get to see the fireworks right infront of your eyes, only bout 8 meters away from where it was lighted up.yay...i feel pretty good and so snaped some photos, here you go...

From left: Siow Wie, me, Suan, Joo, Selva and Uwa.

another chaptured

Better look on this one=)

Roomie Siow Wie and I

Roomie Sek Kee and I

Nah...what can u expect when your in fourth year?busy life, no time gathering, no activities, quit all the society cause your hell busy with the fyp and studies?most of the people think that you shouldn't join all sorts of club, no way of goin' out just for a dinner gatherin'...no no to fourth year students! hey, you should actually enjoy these days!go and have as much fun as possible...join as many society as possible, experience yourself with a real sense of commitment to the task given! its a school life, cause you wont even have a second of this moment when your in working life later. Recently, yea kinda weird I admire both my lecturer, one is a miss lady and the other is my respectful professor. Worse case is this lady would be my panel for the fyp presentation which is gonna held next Tuesday! She is very strict as i heard from friends and senior, taught me this sem in Foundation Engineering. I just like the way she speaked in class, the way she made jokes, thought yes, strict but funny. I used to and always tell my family bout these two lecturer. Both were graduated from UK, permanent gov servent, financially stable, travelled all over the world...hah, really good looking, handsome, pretty, thoughtful, attractive, and generous. ok, they would probably be my future mentor tho:D haha...so damn glad =P

UTHM Basketball Match Champion

HAH!COngratulatiONS to both the team, majority civil engineering students tho'!hehe...well, my team has all the 3 electric&electronic, mechanical and civil engineering students. while the boy's team has all civil engineering students. We ROCKS man!this is the 13th-Sport Carnival, and also my last chance to take part in uni's sport competition alry. Im going to graduate soon!!!i'll miss here badly:') anyway, well done guys!my friends, u guys did really good today. Roomie and i stayed and watch the full match today, and also there're prize given ceremony after the final match. share with you some photos i took...will upload more in facebook later...:)

The Medal - Johan (champion)

Bola Keranjang-Basketball

Roomie and i, we won!:D:D

The Champion

another chaptured

Libra Vs Pieces

Out the of 6 selected students who will join the first programme organised by 4 students >> soon to be the history person in uthm civil eng faculty (*proud proud*), 3 of them are libra-born!lolx, ok im not saying libra isnt good or bad, but i just have this perception that they were just too realistic. They wont pay attention to your convey if they found that your actually talking craps or nonsence. Everything they do, there must be a purpose, or perhaps benefit to'em. I find myself cant really work with the libra, its hard for me to talk to'em, or even share a thought. tough thing. But if your a team with them, hmm...they have a really high commitment towards the task given to'em. Thats the good part of libra tho', and they're fair, fair in the sense that they wont side any site but the truth. im kinda admire these people tho'(admire and own perception is 2 diff thing), they have the social capability, able to mingle round perfectly, extremely smart and alert, ouh and very good looking. So pieces and libra'll never be good, pieces like to imagine, live in the dream, not realistic, libra hates all these. Apart from that, pieces are really sensitive, they tend to take words seriously, libra always give hints and when pieces cant catch the signal libra sent, this would probably turn into famous cultural of misunderstanding. Anyway, pieces is always one soft-hearted person, they forgive people easily as long as u apologize, one word "sorry"...decade-long of misunderstanding can be forgiven (kinda hate this tho' cause im one of'em).

Im not sure all libra are like this, but as far as i know, as i met, mostly are like this.
wutever....lets cheers!=)

Selected students for UK programme has out.

Im gald that these 6 students deserve their best!congratulations to them and once again i need to remind you the meeting at 5pm later held at the RECESS to discuss further bout the progress and so forth....pls attend and be punctual!
thank you...im kinda excited tho' haha...ok right...well, c yea later.

p.s.: thanks for the comfort ppl:D im alright and i dont wanna think bout it which is truely heart-broken me.lolx hey wut?im goin off soon! in the library now....gonna be another hectic week tho', i hate this part right here:( bla bla bla Nov please come asap!

Student's Activity Carnival

Night captured in UTHM campus

Roomie Siow Wie and KJ


Roomie Siow Wie and Sek Kee

Courseking Kwang and fyp partner Alvin

Ever Best Ju and i

We are the BEST, Loving, or caring Club? wut i know is WE CARE FOR YOU, THE WORLD!

Hah, SIEM committee members, and me, the random one.

Uwa the good and helpful guy and me

adorable Ooi, me and uwa (haha...ooi, jgn lebih-lebih!)

Two sweet lil ladies =P

Cute Martina and i

coursemates and i, the hiking club

night scene in the campus

oh and the last snapie with another adorable suanlin:P

Warm dinner with my coursemate

I finally made my promised to go for a dinner with my coursemate. My bad guys, sorry for the fake promised i shall say?well, i've been busy la okay hehe...anyway...its a very random one last night and hope we can go for some grand one next time before graduate? it will be a lifetime memories for all of us tho!:D cheers my BEST buddies! and we rocks!

Ju and I (:

The only four chinese ladies in the class;D Ju, me, Yen and Pao

Sam and Ju, sweet couple:)

sorry guys i must resize this so that people wont get to see clearer wut u guys were showin with your fingers except for Raphael!whahaha...

Great Responds from students

As i walked towards my car after the night class, i saw a crowd of students, who were also just finished their classes gathered infront of a notice board. Then i walked passed by, they were all chatting, discussing and i can see they were so excited with the London programme.

We are, i shall say I, am so very happy to see such a good responds from the students. The advertisement has just been done by this afternoon after 2 days of editing and adding and runnin back and forth between the dorm and the faculty to get it done perfectly. Proposal has also been done, from the early of the semester until now. I really have to thanks to my director of this programme who really work hard and also to the comittee members. We rocks! and this afternoon we've just got the permisson from my advisor that a certificate will be given out to all the selected students who manage to go to this programme.

Some students said to me "London only?i rather go to other places", "nah, i dont see anything interesting in London, its just a city area" things like this....well, im really sick of these people's responds as in you dont appreciate the opportunities given to you and the hard works of the students who came out with this ideas and also the contribution of the university! what on earth do you expect to pay for a trip cost only RM 2k for you to stay in UK for 2 weeks? and the flights is extremely expensive during the month of December due to the Christmas season.

Anyway, I hope students can grab this opportunities to show off yourself that u deserve a place among the 6!

p.s.: ouh and i gotta tell you that if ur interested in it, you've gotta write an essay of fewer than 200 words on "why you wanna go to this programme" the more formal kinda question is written in the form where u can get it from the faculty or direct towards me. mail me at smlim_girl@hotmail.com if you need further info or u can refer to the blog i created in http://www.uthm-london.blogspot.com/.