Anxiety

2 more days to go, and im gonna leave home for a totally new environment already. Working in a new strange place without own transportation is really a challenge to me. Having to learn t0 use the public transportation is one matter, forcing myself to wake up 6 a.m. everyday is really a serious matter! I doubt my ability to work 6 days a week and 9 hours a day...its hard, tough. But then think it the other way, its gonna be nice meeting up with new colleagues, having to walk less than half miles to mrt station and food court for dinner, gather with coursemate from university, sitting in the coffee shop after working hour, hit the sack before 10 p.m., earning stipend with currency exchange rate of 2.3....its gonna be great!

Attended an international english test last couple of days in Corus Hotel and British Council, and it went well. Just a lil bit scary was when taking the reading paper, in fact, it has 40 questions to be done in 60 mintues, you have to do skimming, able to scan and take the main point in a very short time, 3 passages with more than 1000 words each. In the beginning of the third passage, I was caught with cold, bad running nose! I cant really focus until they announced we still have 20 minutes left, nevertheless I managed to finish it on time. Thank God. Guess what? I am still having the cold, bad cold and cough even though had taken 12 capsules of Carinox. ):

I am leaving soon...and Im going to miss home real bad...time spent with mom and dad and sis was precious...:')

Dreams

TOok a long nap this afternoon. I dream of a person, the one very close to me, no idea why u appeared in my dream,never thought of you before i sleep as we were too close.....from the moment i fall asleep till the moment i wake, the entire story was all bout me and you. haha...that was funny. my table and bed in the dorm was shift back to the old place which i do not really like it.(It moved itself). When i open the door, find it has another one to open and then i saw a place where it is completely strange, and i shut then open again, there go another scene...you pull me out and said lets see whats the place look like, then we explored...now there were 3 of us...and suddenly you hold my hand, not a tight one but you trying hard not to let it go...we were all alone now and clinging to each other, very sweet....and we went into a museum...its iron bridge museum how cool!...then you kept holding my hand as we walked, its embarrassing but you seems ok with it...and its so warm, my fingers were all freezing. Then we returned to the door, back to the dorm, and i was studying now, you were besides me...and i fall asleep again, you lean your head towards mine, we were so close that i can hear you were listening to Doin' Just Fine.

p.s.: It was so sad that you weren't that thoughtful and sweet in real. In fact, you were too cold towards me that we can hardly have a conversation.

Wish could have that Magic door.

Thoughtful

Have you ever recieve a note that pasted on your desk and its written: "Just wake me if you need any help in the middle of the night" especially when your all sick....body is arching, and no way to get up but lie on the bed for the whole day....I am really impressed when i saw this note sticked on one of my roomie's table, joo pasted on suan's. Thats really thoughtful of u joo. Tho some ppl always recieved them but well...i think it is very special.

Listing

I realised that its been a practice since I came back to campus. Due to my well arranged schedule by the faculty, I've few hours free in the morning, so every early morning, before running for some places; I would sit down infront of my desk and starts listing on the Post-it to make sure I've done the whole activities listed for each day. Its been keeping me well organised and the best and happy moment is when I came back to room, before prepare for the next day...the entire activities have been carried out and no any delay.

Try to list out things before you forget and make sure you carry out each activity, it is really encouraging to see you've accomplished without delaying your works.

Glad

Somehow i feel so warm tonight, I am very glad tonight and i felt extremely happy. Reasons? no...nothing...just after talking to mum on the phone I felt so alive...Everything i see is a smile...roomie's face reflected back to me with a charming smile...everything i sense tonight are just SOH colourful...lol thats very weird, I did nothing...read few pages of articles, prepared for tomorrow's class and lab to attend...let see....i have an idea....why not organise a SMILE SOCIETY in the uni just to teach the students to smile?ahah...i'll think about it then:)

Smile like them!

Day without preparation

Morning class went pretty good, the subject's chapter one is exactly the same as one of the subject in last semember. :)

I was asked to join in one of the meeting with my supervisor, the faculty deputy dean and assoc Prof Lee from Structural department this morning after my class. It was freaking good as in we were provided breakfast during the meeting, an informal one tho'. Somehow i gained something from this meeting, the topic they discuss is all about the university's project, one of the project that are having the memorandum of understanding with Sibu, peat research in Sarawak. As i said im not prepare for anything for this sudden not knowing what the meeting is all about, I was asked: How many population is there in London now?" gosh im stuned cause not knowing whats the actual figure....11M? btw,I realised that the way they construct the meeting are really different with how students constructed theirs. Its way different and way better. Pretty sad that i came across this that students could not still construct a proper meeting. We shall learn from them in the very first place before stepping into the real working world.

So again, im staying back in the campus for the sake of a meeting held at this hour, 9pm! else i would have like 'went' back home already. Yes, im going back home tomorrow! and im going to some places during this weekend for some destressing and avoiding the unhappy moment that disposed me to melancholy over here. sounds pretty sad huh?hope i'll pull through all this one day before the ending of the semester.

Still...you will notice my vexation due to my fyp, report...and u know what.

p.s.:i knew why im so prone to be bitten by the mosquitoes already....
and just to share with you: bath early or like before 6pm to avoid arthritis.its bad when you grow older.

Happy Birthday to Chai Chin

Hey, an early wish tho....ur leaving soon so just a small gathering and get together after our last paper...:) Happy Birthday in advance!

We had a great time together for the lunch today, in Mei Ling Restaurant. The menu is nice i can tell, but somehow i dont feel like eating meat after a month of being a vegetarian...felt like vomiting :( then night again, had yes, good dinner, fish cheese rice at Boston, hah...no no...not again here...gotta control the desire...

Anyway, its a not-so-happy day for me today...feel bad bout myself, did badly in exam. hmmm...and i lost my very own jade while packing up the stuff, the chain fall and couldnt find my jade no more...:'( what a sad thing uh....

feel like crying and shouting out loud...useless.....

Eco-house project gets under way

Good news I'll be going to Mid Wales in middle December:) where one of the construction works are still, constructing is the Eco-house in Wales. below are some info i get from the net...just to share with you...

The volunteer says this is how the finished house will look

The covering will be wattle and daub mixed by hand

A traditional Celtic roundhouse is being built in mid Wales as an experiment in sustainable living.
A group of 12 volunteers will spend almost two weeks constructing the dwelling on land owned by the Primrose Earth Awareness Trust near Brecon.
The trust, an environmental education charity, works to raise awareness of sustainable living practices.
The house will have a wooden frame and will be covered in the customary hand-mixed wattle and daub.
Project manager Carol Levick said the wood would come from off-cuts of oak from a local sawmill and willow, cut on site, would then be woven around it.
"The volunteers will be mixing mud, straw, lime, and cow manure by trampling it together, and daubing the willow with the mixture by hand.
The trust says its aim is "to encourage a respect for the earth and an appreciation of the interdependence of people, plants and the environment".
It was set up in January 2000 on land that was previously part of Primrose Farm in the village of Felindre in Powys.
Much of the charity's work involves young people. School groups visit the site and trust staff going out to local schools to give talks.
The trust also runs courses on sustainable gardening and food production for enthusiastic gardeners and smallholders.
The two weeks of work on the roundhouse - which begins on Monday - will see the site transformed from just an empty field to a building ready for thatching.
While construction work is taking place, the trust will be open to visitors who can watch the volunteers and learn something about ancient Celtic skills.
Those taking part in the project include some who have come from many different parts of the world. There are also a number of local volunteers.

Libra Vs Pieces

Out the of 6 selected students who will join the first programme organised by 4 students >> soon to be the history person in uthm civil eng faculty (*proud proud*), 3 of them are libra-born!lolx, ok im not saying libra isnt good or bad, but i just have this perception that they were just too realistic. They wont pay attention to your convey if they found that your actually talking craps or nonsence. Everything they do, there must be a purpose, or perhaps benefit to'em. I find myself cant really work with the libra, its hard for me to talk to'em, or even share a thought. tough thing. But if your a team with them, hmm...they have a really high commitment towards the task given to'em. Thats the good part of libra tho', and they're fair, fair in the sense that they wont side any site but the truth. im kinda admire these people tho'(admire and own perception is 2 diff thing), they have the social capability, able to mingle round perfectly, extremely smart and alert, ouh and very good looking. So pieces and libra'll never be good, pieces like to imagine, live in the dream, not realistic, libra hates all these. Apart from that, pieces are really sensitive, they tend to take words seriously, libra always give hints and when pieces cant catch the signal libra sent, this would probably turn into famous cultural of misunderstanding. Anyway, pieces is always one soft-hearted person, they forgive people easily as long as u apologize, one word "sorry"...decade-long of misunderstanding can be forgiven (kinda hate this tho' cause im one of'em).

Im not sure all libra are like this, but as far as i know, as i met, mostly are like this.
wutever....lets cheers!=)

HAPPY BURPHDAY to my loved one.

Just WANNA SHOUT to you HAPPY Birthday!!how i wish you could read this...and of course you would read this:D Wanna thank you for caring me so much....you are the MOST MOST wonderful person in this entire planet to me!Love yea lotss...and God bless yea all the time.
This post is specially for you my beloved one :)

Another hinder

"Reciprocal....its for the mobility of students..."...its nono tings....i was told. We was told.
So...what are we up to now? Im still puting a high hope on it, i can see there's still some light at the end of the tunnel.

Im always slow in catchin up ppl's conversation...and it was really embarrassing when we had this conversations with prof D.C. just now. tried hard to listen to wut he said but sometimes just couldnt catch it...haha..its freaking embarressing!

Praying hard and Good Luck

p.s.:well, we managed to talk to DVC today, face to face. she is really great.

Bored Weekend

This is the first weekend i stayed back in campus, besides doing fyp, i was watching the movie most of the time. haha...well, i've got a big plan for tomorrow.I gotta ready myself to meet a person, someone who will bring brighter future for me and also my friends. guess its all gonna be a good news...i'll tell u later. well, its pretty cool today as i managed to eat McD!wahahaha....Alvin fetched me and my roomie out for dinner after an important discussion with 3 of my fyp groupmates. nothing much i can share...its just that i really hate the day without my family. tho i suppose to be at home but due to the sick fyp. at least, done my chap 1.hehe..yea, peoples has done all the 3 chap but its like so darn hard for me to even done one. so sad uh. wutever, pray hard and for the best for tomorrow's meeting. God bless.

My "working" place

I was in the Recess the whole day except for lunch in the campus today. Was told that we can bring over the pillow if we like to. haha....right, not funny though its really comfortable in it, fully air-conditioned, the best laboratory in the campus i shall considered. The final year project or so called undergraduate project or we normally called it PSM in the campus, is one of the most tiring project throughout the four years. Few weeks ago my supervisor has ordered the technician in the lab to get me a table, a good computer and well arrange all my equipment which i would be the only one who is using it for my psm. And i called it my working place cause i would probably stay in there besides attending for classes. Room will be my 3rd home now.hehe....say no to library due to H1N1(i really scared). so come to the Recess and visit me. And ouh, i'll be playing with soil, soft soil, study everything about soil, make friends with soil and u name it. Research on soft soil isn't an easy task....it is the most difficult work for me tho'...especially the behavior of the soil...u'll never know because it is natural resources, tiny lil particles...i chose soil because it is special, it has the thing the speciality where no one have it, and it can be very serious, if you doesnt know it well, then u'll get into trouble, totally into deep trouble.

This is my personal PSM research place in one of the RECESS corner

I'll be testing Marine clay by using Rowe Cell, and this is my desktop which is fully connected to the Rowe Cell equipment and it continous functionin for the whole week.

p.s.: well Alvin has got a brand new machine which cost more than a hundred million!

I need a lil peace of mind

Hate it so much when these people kept on disturbing me especially when i was busy...as in talkin craps which im not interested at all...why on earth would i wanna knw ur things since it has nothing to do with me?!sigh...stop crappin like nobody's business...i said im busy, i meant it!am doin something > important than ur prob okie...we can share the thoughts after that when im finally free...so pls give me some peaceful moments to cont my works.

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Done with 2 papers in a day. 2 totally major paper with 3 credits each. I am tired. I could really tell i am working really hard for the past few days. I was studying studying and stuydying. I was thinking of the possible solution for each question i do. But again, i dont think i do well for the first paper, as for the second one, i realised im not studying in details. I can simply do a silly mistake which could be such an easy one. Yet i have another paper on tomorrow evening, i am here. A lil low now, without any reason.

BIG THANK YOU!

knock knock knock...."comin'" i shouted. and i just cant be bothered who is coming in as most likely these people are not lookin' for me. As the door opened, nobody gave any responds(usually there would be like: xxx ada tak? or Hi xxx) but not today, i can sense the footsteps are walking toward my corner...and i turned around...argh...i was stunned for a few second....my mind tells me that this person look so darn familiar! omg...is my sis!...then when i done 'stunnin' lol...we were laughing like hell...!hahaha...mum came in later and was laughing as well..okay...i got such a huge suprised from sis and parents also one of my dad's fren coming along. Sis cook me some meal while dad packed me a nasi bryani! ouh...i was so blissful!mum made a carrot+orange juice for me too. I am really really happy!:D:D:D later then we went to BP and mum bought me a pair of Nike shoes as mine has spoilt and couldnt find one till now and a Cheeta's pant. Dad too bought me a pair of Levi's socks. I've gotta considered myself are very lucky today...i am actually thinking of them this afternoon as figuring how nice if i were to be at home and having our meal together or go for a window shoppin which is not so 'window' hehe...and here they came! arghh...thank GOD i am BLISSED...
THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH!:-D

Back to the campus-missing home

You'll be wondering why am i so keen to back in uni though i've more than a week breaks...yes, i am back to the hard slog gain, due to my fyp...and also tests are approaching. Argh...i hate to back here especially the rainy day here. Why wouldnt this jz happend to be at home?!sigh...Malacca is a place where u can hardly see the rain drops, and if u do...that must be a special day...*for me*. I love the sense of raining day only being at home...together with the family...hmm...drinkin the hot soup cook by mum...dad would bring us for a hi tea, almost every evening. Went to the indian shop in the town area just for some light food before dinner, banana leave rice, paper tosai, massalla tosai...*my fav^^ right...i was thinkin to back home this weekend tho':P hehe missing home and missing food so so much:-)

p.s.: this would be the perfect time for me to study and do some revision as well as catch up with my fyp stuff....cause im alone in the room:P

Laughters IS the best medicine

While i was waiting for mum to get her hair trim, i randomly took one magazine which placed nicely on the glass table, its cover had been tore but seems still like a new one...couldnt be bothered, i go ahead and read it...the entire contents were all talkin' about girls' stuff...One part that catched my attention was the word Laugh...it says: A good chuckle really does wonders for your skin, it increases blood and oxygen flow while expending the capillaries and nourishing your complexion. I wondered why the Malaysian nowadays doent seems friendly at all...at lease, smile...you want your skin to look good, as simple as just a SMile=) Pretty good motivation for people like me tho'...realised that i dont really smile or laugh due to stress these days...i gotta keep on tryin'...

Missin' someone

argh, its horrible to miss someone so much.

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊? 如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼? 是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開? 是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Beautiful Night

I've been quite busy lately. Busy for the convo orchestra, selling food and drinks at night, really tiring and not enough rest for studying...

Exhausted...though...one thing i enjoyed the most at the busy night is, beside busy'ing for the small business...the moonlight...the moon itself, isnt the same as normally i admired...the color....a lil bit of orange...and some sign in the middle...lol...i couldnt understand the languege tho'...but i really love seein' 'this' moon these couple of days...admiring it in the campus...such a peaceful night, cold wind blow thru...hmmh...its special to me...while i was moon-lighting:)