Working with Anger

Do you believe in karma?

Yes, I definitely believe in it.

First, let's look at what we did in this life to encounter others who treat us poorly. How did we get into this situation? What did we do that aggravated the other person and made him act this way towards us? We must be very honest with ourselves. Maybe we really weren't so innocent. Maybe we were trying to manipulate the other person and he didn't fall for it. He got upset and so we play hurt and offended. But in fact, our own behaviour brought the situation about.

By being introspective, we'll notice our faults and can correct them. The we won't find ourselves in such unpleasant situations in the future.

This means we take responsibility for being in that situation, regardless of whether or not the other person is making an indue fuss. By acknowledging our mistakes or wrong motivations, we'll become aware of how our behaviour affects other people. By avoiding destructive behaviour in the future, we won't activate others to harm us.

That's looking at what we did in this lifetime to trigger the event. Let's now look from a broader viewpoint, over the course of many lifetimes. This brings in the topic of karma, which is the intentional actions. Our actions leave imprints on our consciousness. These imprints later ripen and influence our experiences.

What we experiences now is a result of what we have done in previous lifetimes...I can tell that not many of you who are reading this believe in this isn't it? Let's say someone is beating is, this signifies that in previous lives we have harmed others. To experience that effect now, we must have done something previously. Karma- action and its result is like a boomerang. We throw it out and it comes back to us. Similarly, if we treat others in a certain way, we put that energy into the universe- and it comes back to us later.

Understanding this allows us to accept responsibility for the situation.

May the joy always be with you

Imagine writing an email of what you want to the Universe. When you are happy that your email is very clear, you hit "Send" and you know your request has gone into the ethers. You also know that the Server of the Universe is an automatic system, and it doesn't question email requests. Its job is simply to fulfil every request.
If you begin to worry and stress that you haven't got what you wanted, then you have just sent another email to the Universe to stop your order. And then you wonder why you haven't received what you asked for.
Once you Ask, know that the Server of the Universe is an automatic infallible system that never fails, and expect to receive your request!

May the joy be with you

Every day, or at the very least once or twice a week, take a few minutes and focus on seeing yourself in joy. Feel yourself in joy. Imagine only joy ahead in your life and see yourself basking in it. As you do this the Universe will move all people, circumstances, and events to bring you that joy. You can't be in joy if you have money worries, or health worries, or relationship problems with friends or family. So deposit some joy in the bank of the Universe as often as you can. There isn't an investment that is more worthwhile.

Rhonda Byrne

A time for myself

Went for few meeting with three of my bosses this afternoon, met up with the company CEO and some other engineers and project manager. We had a grand lunch at Lagun Club, the dinning hall is just right besides the huge lake, very beautiful golf coast scence. It is tough for a newbie like me to mingle in with their strange conversation topic, current issues...etc. I think what a fresh graduate must do the moment they step into working world is to make sure be alert and study people's personality, foresee something that is going to happen, have sometime for yourself to do meditation. With these, we can actually remember every event we carried out everyday very well, especially whatever we said, think, learn and hear-improve your memory.

To survive in a fiercely competitve job market, one need to be extremely alert and have a very good memory. With these two, I personally think one would have no issue in getting a position with good pay.

Listening to my favourite music...while making my personal daily diary...feel very peaceful and filled with gratitude...am gonna attend a course this few days, very glad that company is so generous to pay such a huge sum of money in investing their people...

Its incredible...

-Unforgettable-Frank Sinatra-

-I Love You For Sentimental Reasons-Nat King Cole-

Thank You once again-My Graduation

I feel so proud for my family, my dad, my mum and my only sister. They've brought me to who I am now...I am proud of my university, I must thank you my lecturers, my professors, my faculty dean...and lastly, thank you my friends. Without each and everyone of you, there will be no Sin Mei. I am so touch when mom secretly put the red packet under my phone, sis sacrified her annual leave for me, and dad book the hotel 1 month earlier before my graduation. So so Thankful.

It was a very tiring day on the 9,10 and 11 Oct 2010, but at the same time will be the most important and meaningful day I will never forget in my life. It's my degree graduation!

Waking up at 4.30am for the entire 3 days was really exhausting. Landmark hotel doesn't provide very good services, I'll say you better book Catherina hotel instead! 9 Oct 10, Vice Chancellor Award Ceremony. It was held at the Examination Hall, F2, it was a shame not to meet those who suppose to attend, they prefer to work (the reason is that they work half day on Sat and get a full day pay!) and that they do not have to apply unpaid leave, so they were absence. Anyway, mum and dad are really proud cause they managed to sit with both the Deputy Vice Chancellor! It was so great to see my name appeared on the list and its written "VIP 1" table :D which mean there will be people serving food for us instead of taking it all yourself (its buffet). The food were so excellent-nasi briyani! - one of my fav's.

10-10-10 Sunday

This is the first day of convocatio, only for PhD graduates, Masters, DPLI and Special award graduates. I was awarded Chancellor Award and recieving it from our Sultan Johor. All the graduates have to register themselve, prepare and wait at the Lecture Hall 2 (DK2). It is because Sultan Johor was giving out the award, we were all told to say "Menjunjung Kasih Tuanku" and makesure we 'Keksi", both are a must! Later then we queue and move to the DTII Hall. When the time come, my name was mentioned very loud and clear and it is the first name called out-I was panic! I do not know why and how, I never do both the MUST to do that we were all told. All the graduates did that except me! gosh...when I heard my name, my mind go blank, totally...haha it was so bad isn't it?

Thanks Wan Mei for attending it on our first day!:D

Then the next day...

11-10-10

I told myself I must remember to do it this time and it was our Pro Chancellor this time. Luckily I did all I suppose to :) Few sms wishes was sent to my mobile, one is from a very strict, very fierce, very responsible lecturer, Mr Adanan, and the other one I could remember was from my boss. Later then some lecturer called up and also friends who never forget me;) Thanks yea!

Thank you Suan, your the very first friend I met when I come out from the hall (its really crowded)

The afternoon...

Dato has been sooo kind to organised a Homecoming Program at RECESS to welcome us and our family members for a grand lunch I'll say. The food-Thumbs up! Thank you Dr Lee for calling and joined us for the meal.

Left: Ah Jie, me, Mom, Dato' Ismail, Prof. DC, Assoc. Prof. Lee, and dad.

Kent and I-Thanks for coming buddy!

Best IAI London partner! with AMI.

UTHM Civil Engineering Graduates

Prof DC, me and Dato Ismail at Recess

Why still single?

When people asked me why are you still single? and my answer will somehow be as simple as i want to be single and freedom...but when I think deeply, actually mature one are hard to find ;)

How to you find your works are interesting?

It is very rare for people to like working, some, or perhaps most work for the sake of money....well, I am one of them of course:P but think of the other way, when you like something in the office, eventually you'll like to go to work, cause you're looking forward to see it, or maybe him/her, your colleagues or even your bosses. Some might have love their work just because they like the work itself (very very extremely rare)....Hmm...I'm getting used to my working environment already, my females' colleagues are all very nice and good to me, not the guy. So in my department, there are only 3 gals including me, the rest are all men. Work with 7 bosses, there are just too awesome, there's once when I work late and he offer to send me back, reach right infront of my house! and then the next day, one of the bosses bring me and my colleage for a site visit, also bring us to try some nice food!....Just last Saturday, I've already planned to go back home, and the bus pick up point is really far from my work place(it took 1 1/2 hours), so they allow me to join them for another site visit, and after that send me to the bus terminal....very nice man uh!:D I never met bosses that always care for the staff. When the first time work in oversea, totally strange place, my boss give me all the informations I needed, such as what type of phone card I gotta buy to make cheaper phone call to home, what type of cab to take to go back hometown...drive me back instead of stopping at the nearby station like other people did...making sure I am safe returning home by asking the staff to send me home even tho' they can't manage to...:) I feel very glad to work under him. I like my work because of you. Thank you!

~We work for you not because we are afraid of you, but we respect you~

p.s.: this is actually the security guard from my university told me, he respect our ex-vice chancellor alot(Prof. Dato Dr Ismail Bin Hj. Bakar)

End of the Road

I don't know how and why, somehow when I listen to this song i think of a friend, and i miss those day we were in the uni:)

I like this song so much:)

...its by Boyz II Men...

(spoken)Girl you know we belong together

I have no time for you to be playing

With my heart like this

You’ll be mine forever baby,

you just see

(verse)

We belong together

And you that I’m right

Why do you play with my head,

Hy do you play with my mind?

Said we’d be forever

Said it’d never die

How could you love me and leave me

And never say good-bye?

Girl I can’t sleep at night without holding you tight

Girl, each time I try I just break down and cry

Pain in my head oh I’d rather be dead

Spinnin’ around and around

Chorus:

Although we’ve come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Come to the end of the road

Still I can’t let you go

It’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you

Girl, I know you really love me,

You just don’t realize

You’ve never been there before

It’s only your first time

Maybe I’ll forgive you, hmm

Maybe you’ll try

We should be happy together

Forever, you and i

Girl, you love me again like you loved me before

This time I want you to love me much more

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me, don’t let me down

Chorus(spoken)Girl I’m here for you

All those times of night when you just hurt me

And just run out with that other fella

Baby I knew about it, I just didn’t care

You just don’t understand how much I love you do you?

I’m here for you

I’m not out to go out and cheat on you all night

Just like you did baby but that’s all right

Hey, I love you anyway

And I’m still gonna be here for you ’till my dying day baby

Right now, I’m just in so much pain baby

Coz you just won’t come back to me

Will you? just come back to me

(lonely)

Yes baby my heart is lonely

(lonely)

My heart hurts baby

(lonely)

Yes I feel pain tooBaby please

This time instead just come to my bed

And baby just don’t let me go

Chorus

Chorus (a cappella)

p.s.: and...I let it go...wish you'll be there for my convocation ceremony on the 10th...

My days in office

"WOW"....thats what I wanna say about my new company. First thing is-rich(yeah, to me yes, even the pen i used are all branded, mostly Pilot, eraser are made from Germany, good quality sticker, whatever you want, just take, and all brand new:D:D and just today, office came one middle size dispenser, it contained of white coffee, my fav milo, and milk tea. Do not need to mention about the IT thing, all high tech, HP prof laptop, ordered brand new logitech wireless mouse for me, company transportation provided everyday, pick up point from mrt station. It is just too wow! In fact, there will be a Bowling tournament at the end of this month, competition held at Jurong Point, among a group of 2 male and 1 females from different department, HR, ground engineering, marine engineering department and so on...winners would be awarded 200 dollars each, that is what i recieved from the mail and company advertisement!argh, i missed out the females football tournament last month! They even have different type of game competition in the company!I wish the badminton one come in next month!!

Mrt service is down on tomorrow for certain area, but guess what, I am sure not all people are aware of this, so there are some gov servant, i guess, distributing the broucher at the exit, like when we swap out the card from mrt station and kept on reminding the people about this matter. They are really concern about the nation. Needless to mention about Malaysia, not because it is big, London is bigger...the different between these 2 countries is only the people-asian and white, and the weather, else, there make no different to stay in England or Singapore. Argh, one more thing, you dont really see people reading in the mrt in S'pore, but in London tube, you dont see people talking, but reading! they have people giving out press, magazine for free at the entrance of the tube and kept on saying ' please read', so these are a few diff I can judge throughout my stay in S'pore and London. There are more to say though, I'll post up more later.

Ielts results out today, I am okay with the results, in fact it is out of my expectation, am very glad to have high score in section where I dont expect it to be. Somehow, speaking section was the worse one for me though I thought it should be the best one.:( a lil dissapointed for this. By the way, still wanna congrate my frends who scored good results:) and cheers for those who do not.

Anxiety

2 more days to go, and im gonna leave home for a totally new environment already. Working in a new strange place without own transportation is really a challenge to me. Having to learn t0 use the public transportation is one matter, forcing myself to wake up 6 a.m. everyday is really a serious matter! I doubt my ability to work 6 days a week and 9 hours a day...its hard, tough. But then think it the other way, its gonna be nice meeting up with new colleagues, having to walk less than half miles to mrt station and food court for dinner, gather with coursemate from university, sitting in the coffee shop after working hour, hit the sack before 10 p.m., earning stipend with currency exchange rate of 2.3....its gonna be great!

Attended an international english test last couple of days in Corus Hotel and British Council, and it went well. Just a lil bit scary was when taking the reading paper, in fact, it has 40 questions to be done in 60 mintues, you have to do skimming, able to scan and take the main point in a very short time, 3 passages with more than 1000 words each. In the beginning of the third passage, I was caught with cold, bad running nose! I cant really focus until they announced we still have 20 minutes left, nevertheless I managed to finish it on time. Thank God. Guess what? I am still having the cold, bad cold and cough even though had taken 12 capsules of Carinox. ):

I am leaving soon...and Im going to miss home real bad...time spent with mom and dad and sis was precious...:')

Way to go...

I was in Selangor last week, accompanied by mum and stay in sis's house. For the sake of preparing myself for the exam which is gonna be held on 21 August. Have you ever imagine that you are going to write again the english essays in 40 minutes for 250 words and 20 minutes for a 150 words at least? Those has been ages for me...am a lil regret to pay for this exam now as I have limited time in preparing for it...:( jz pray for the best..God bless me and everyone:)

~do not have to worry about things that can be done, whilst there's no point to worry for things that cannot be done~

LAWS

It belongs to LAWS-Lina,Alicia,WanInn, and Sin Mei

我敬爱的教授

车窗开着的，冷冷的风正吹向我的脸。。。驶到大学的四周围绕一绕，让我感到有些酸酸的感觉。 我一直都觉得在大学的日子是最快乐的，当你遇到困难时教授一定会毫不犹豫地帮你解决。生活在一个不同种族的国家难免会有歧视和你不同的种族。但是，他，我最尊重的拿督教授，是一位非常好的人。不管是教授，朋友，还是身为一位父亲，他都会做到最好。还记得有一次，是我在大学第四年的时候，进行泥土的科学研究遇到了困难，需要用到一个非常昂贵的器具。告诉了教授，他一听了马上就拿起手提电话打给了供应商。就在不必经过慢长步骤的情况下，我的器具在不到一周就装配好放在我的研究桌上了。

在2009年的夏天，和教授及系友参与了一个会议。在会议当中，教授介绍了几个大人物给我包括了一位英国的教授。就这样，告诉了教授我非常想到伦敦见识见识。短短的三个月里，教授成功了得到伦敦建议书的批准。在2009年的冬天，就这样实现了我的梦想。我抵达了伦敦。

几个礼拜前，收到了新加坡一间工程公司的电子邮箱。我被录取了，将会是一位真正的工程师！
已经有一段日子没到新加坡了，完全没概念公司的所在地，必须到那儿租房子？更本就傻乎乎似的。听到了教授在技术人员办公室提到将会到新加坡大学办点事，就问了教授是否能伴随着去新加坡大学。教授考虑了一会就答应了。伴随着教授和两位研究员抵达了新加坡大学，就在回国的路程中教授问了要不要顺便参观‘工程公司’。 更本没做好准备的我，也不肯定公司的地址，司机还驶到错了的地点。教授不但没生气，而且还安慰我会找到公司的。用了整整半小时，终于找到了。结识了三位老板，教授还帮我说了好话！

每当在大学遇到最烦恼的时候，他总是帮我解决了种种的问题。他的安慰，付出，帮助，劝导将让我永远不会忘记。非常高兴及幸运会是教授的学生，也非常感激教授的一却付出。

谢谢您教授。

教授，Prof. Dato' Dr. Ismail bin Hj. Bakar 和我

p.s.:说真的，这类型的人还是我第一次遇到的，快要灭种了！

Realistic

Had a good chat with my roomie, talked about working in Singapore, some ppl, they went over for the sake of earning money, and save the most they can. when they came back to Mys,they tends to show off, even with a small little post, they are vry proud of themselves. This kinda senario of course, does happened in the world today, very much indeed. Pity them, they dont even know how's the big world are like today. Yes, money played the biggest role in one person's life, but wut would it be when ur gettin old?does ppl wanna recruit you anymore?without the 'u knw wut', ppl wont want you when your no longer profited their company.

This is just how cruel the world is...face it.

The Secret

Every night before you fall asleep, replay in your mind the good moments of the day, and give heartfelt thanks for each one of them. Think about the next day also, and intend that it is going to be amazing, that it is going to be filled with love and joy, and that all good is coming to you. Intend that it is going to be the best day of your life. Then when you wake in the morning, BEFORE you get out of bed, declare your intentions again for the day and give deep thanks as though you have received them all.

U appear when the other left

S go off the other night and the other s appear today...am i supposed to feel happy for myself? really have good fate with the S fren!

Sleepless night

It was sooo hard to fall asleep last night...all kind of stuff like stored well in my brain with 100 save in the brain memory...I don't even wanted to remember but it just cant go off just like that...how pathetic am I! It strike me this morning the moment i woke...:(

mE & yOu

I'll Be Missing You - afternoon class yr 1999

Las Ketchup - Mom, Cempaka shop 2002

简单爱- Wendy Chan, District sports competition 2002

爱在西元前 - Hui Ling, MGSS Sports day 2003

You Make Me Wanna - Suet Yeen 2003

Because of You - Celine Tan 2003
Dancing Queen - Winter Sonata 2003

Forever Love - Che, back from tuition 2006

Without You - Che, TSN B111 2006

霍元甲 - Pre-U, GSC 2006

A Thousand Mile - Alarm tone 2006

Can't Take My Eyes Off You - Jie 2006

Lonely - Jie Nokia 6670 2006

Don't Forget About Us - Malaysia Idol 2006

Matsuri - UTP 2006

Is It You? - Khian 2006

In Da Club - Dad 2006

Kiss Goodbye - Nianche, back from tuition 2006

My Love - Roomie Chin B111 2006

Say It Right - Roomie Chin, our fav 2006

Where Is The Love - spin round with Kinks in Mlc, headin to MGS 2007

Sway - Mom ringtone 2007

Apologize - CY and friends 2007

Lost - Suan, lunch in PR 2007

Please forgive Me - Hotlink mobile caller ringtone 2007

Baby Love - My Fav 2007

Umbrella - William car, headin for lunch 2007

Home - KFC with friends in PR 2008

With You - Making video in TF for friends 2008

Better In Time - YuXin, Suan, G3D-310 2008

1973 - Cut and Curl 2008

Cookie Jar - Traffic project in BP 2008

A Moment Like This - Suan 2008

爱我还是她- Kinks Mlc 2008

What You Got - Susan, KD house 2008

Because I'm A Girl - Ramesh, 3rd Sem 2008

Love Story - 3rd Sem gals bathing, laying on bed 2008

We Are The World - Mom, 3rd sem Speghetti bridge 2008

So Close - Suan, movie 2008

T-Shirt - Lina and I teasin on the song lyrics 2008

Take you There - KD house, playing basketball 2008

The Scientist - Final exam 2008

When You Look At Me - TF Song dedication 2008

Whatever You Like - Tehel 2009

Dangerous - Worse results ever 2009

Tatoo - Justine's fav 2009

Low - Jie's fav, Susan 2009

Bleeding Love - YuXin, Ping Pong game in TF 2009

Break It Off - Suan new mobile 2009

Heartbreaker - Suan msg tone 2009

A Smile Like You, The Climb - Suan Blog 2009

Mad - Suan, My fav 2009

Do You Feel Me - My sweet time, My fav 2009

I'm Yours - Zu, Traffic project 2009

Now and Forever - Huggin, bettin farewell with friends Mlc bus terminal 2009

Kiss Me Through The Phone - Selva 2009

Poker Face - G3 168 2009

失落非主流 - Yene 2009

Nobody - Wee Teck 2009

Love Game - G3 Canteen 2009

Love In This Club - Night walk with friends 2009

Whatca Doin' - London tube 2009

Kiss The Rain - My fav, roomie Lina 2009

Won't Go Home Without You - Jie's fav 2010

Empire State of Mind - Playing badminton with roomie 2010

3 - Mom 2010

I'm Doin' Just Fine - UK video, Ramesh 2010

Breathless - Getz 2010
Down - Final Exam 2010

You Belong With Me - Dad, Oboe 2010

My fav:

I'll be Missing You, Smoke Gets In Your Eyes, Snow On The Sahara, Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Words, Supermassive Black Hole, Tik Tok, What You Got, Whatcha Say, 女人味

Dilemma

Ok...where shall I start??

So many thing comes in a row...when ppl said "if your good, you dont have to look for the job, is the job that is chasing after you...well, somehow I agree to it.

how do I relate this statement to my current situation....

I can see many of my friends who scored pretty good results, they are then recommended by the senior to work in an established, huge/big (of course scary) company, and normally these people are well performed...and its always money that comes in their later part of life...plenty of it...and eventually become richie...so...this is life, a fresh graduate's mind should have thought of...isnt it great?of course some people will say why do I need to struggle so much since uni life is for people to enjoy and relax and have fun!...no objection of having some entertainment but do not forget the aims of entering into a university-to gain knowledge and perform well so that you will become one of the creatures to be vied for recruitment in the industry later on.

I has always dreaming to be an engineer, researcher...now...yes my dream is becoming a reality already, but when your wishes is fulfiling, you starts to have dilemma cause there are so many that came in a row....you have hard time for the decision to make...trust me this isnt an easy task to deal with.

Study? working? is working experience more important than to pursue a PhD? Questionmarks are all spining above my head now...I have got a really good position in a big establised company and at the same time I somehow recieved a greatest news in my life for pursuing PhD under a certain scholarship....again...it is a toughest decision to make. I am allow to do Permanent Head Damage in UK (there are, of course some requirements) without needed to undergo Masters. what would you do if you were me?...

Dreaming of Ireland

My next target is Ireland, probably Northern Ireland which is a part of the United Kingdom. Heard it has had a troubled history about this Republic of Ireland from my lecturer who is now pursuing her PhD over there, but the country is stable now and makes an ideal place to visit on holiday. I just love the weather (winter!awww) and the western food! has yet to experience the real snow...lolx...sounds crazy just becasue of this Im dreaming of it, no...I have some plan actually. Well I will get to you soon on this.

Awesome cliffs of Ireland

Malahide Castle

Dublin

Towards the end of May

Its been a rather tough time under industrial training...somehow i prefered to study forever and ever...forever a study life...its a an illusion tho' huh...

Contradictin'

Recieved a call from a company this morning asking me to send a resume over, wants me to work straight after my industrial training....askin' what are my expertises, there are 2 options for me, either construction or consultant...depends on which i like...

well...which shall i choose?

I need some time to rest after struggling for 4 years in uni actually...and even for industrial training like now, my brain is stuffed with all sort of things, ideas, tension, stresses...as in were given few tasks, gonna done in 2 weeks time...especially when you have no one to guide you besides open back the book and study...apply the theory into practical is tough without someone who done it before. And of course was thinking to go for further...

I think i should just reject the offer from the company?

What shall i do?

Claudine

Do you still remember this song?

this is the one i dedicated to you when we were having final examination...

I wished life is just as simple as what we wish...

哭笑不得

你好绝啊。。。

笑吧，他不自得你去流泪。

批。三。：喜欢，让人真的好痛苦。

Satisfactory

Its coming to the end of the semester already...somehow i dont feel sad just because this is my final year and final semester in university. I am glad that actually i've try my best in just about everything i do...though sometimes it wasnt what i expected.

hmm...i dint talked alot this sem...seriously i talked the less words i did in my life...rather i spent most of the time for myself...meditating....it wasnt that bad after all, its better than gossipin' round when starts to chat with friends...met few of new friends last couple of week, they were all talking and i was sitting there and listen...so is that what you gals are always talking about?gossipin' about people's bad thing...its boring...

3 final exam papers on next week and i haven done any revision yet...was busy with thesis...life was tough for a year 4 student i can tell....its not as easy as what people always mentioned: life in uni is like a bean curd...haha..well, no. its very challenging for sure.

Anyway...its almost done...a week later im gonna dump every single left over stuff in my brain. left over...yeah, bcause there'r still something i needa keep:)

p.s.:i dream of you last night, its really a sweet one..;)

A meal with both my Supervisor and Industrial Supervisor

This is the second or third time already people kept telling me how lucky am I having such a great supervisor. I really am very thankful of being supervised under Dato Ismail....its my greatest honor to be under his guidance!:D and am very proud, of course:P hehe

Today is another great day for me tho', it good to have sitting down and have some meal with the industrial supervisor before starts attach in that particular company and deal with the boss, colleague, etc.... Ir. Dr. Gue See-Sew from G&P Professionals S/Bhd is my industrial supervisor and he was here today in university giving some geotechnical related seminar. I was lucky to being asked to join them for breakfast and lunch. So during lunch hour, Dato' and Dr Gue and Prof Azizan were having some serious talk about the current issue in geotechnical engineering field as well as not so serious topic like my industrial training activities. Dr. Gue is a serious and knowledgable person who shared alot of thoughts with us. Well, i dont even know there's a bridge collapsed in Muar recently...shame shamed...After the lunch, Dato fetched me back to uni, though it was a short distance from Parit Raja to UTHM, the driving speed of Dato has brought towards a pretty long conversation. He talks and shared alot of his past experienced with me especially when he was in LSU back in 20 years time then his family and cames across the students life of his in LSU.

Now i know better about my supervisor and Im gonna do well in my thesis to pay back back you in return. Thanks for being such a good supervisor to me:)

From left: Ir. Dr. Gue See-Sew, Prof. Azizam, Dato' Ismail and Alvin

me and...they were looking at the huge Muar portrait on the side wall

We were transfered to the upstair table as there have better environment and air-conditioned and we occupied the whole area!haha!...the meal was great and i ordered myself a basket of french fried!!:D

The Victor

If you think you are beaten, you are.

If you think you dare not, you don’t

If you like to win but think you can’t,

It’s almost a cinch you won’t.

If you think you’ll lose, you’re lost.

For out in the world we find

Success begins with a fellow’s will

It’s all in the state of mind.

If you think you are outclassed, you are.

You’ve got to think high to rise.

You’ve got to be sure of yourself before

You can ever win the prize.

Life’s battles don’t always go

To the stronger or faster man.

But sooner or later, the man who wins

Is the man who thinks he can.

Poet: C.W. Longenecker

Good Friday

Today is the fifth day of the Holy Week called Good Friday. Christians around the world celebrate today’s holiday Good Friday commemorating the crucifixion of Jesus Christ, His death at Calvary, and his Resurrection from the grave, am pretty sure Malacca will be kind of merrier right now:D Still remember I was home last year's Good Friday, it was a great one as I travelled down to town with family, passing by the church and there were so many people around. Hope after this year, or I shall say after this month...I am going to completely release myself to the fullest!...very stress atm.

So what is A Good Friday?

Also known as Holy Friday and Great Friday, Good Friday is a time of reflection among Catholics. Traditions during Good Friday includes the prayers to each of the fourteen Stations of the Cross, fasting, various processions, the Way of the Cross, and a Passion play called Senakulo, among others.

However, there are some fanatics that because of their intense profession of faith to Jesus Christ, they want to mimic the crucifixion of Jesus Christ in that they themselves are being crucified into a cross during Good Friday. This can be seen in the predominantly Catholic country Philippines.

Moreover, if you are looking for some Good Friday quotes to share with your friends and relative this Good Friday, you can find some of them below:
“All His life long Christ was the light of the world, but the very noontide hour of His glory was that hour when the shadow of eclipse lay over all the land, and He hung on the Cross dying in the dark. At His eventide “it was light,” and, “He Endured the Cross, despising the shame” and, lo! the shame flashed up into the very brightness of glory, and the very ignominy and the suffering were “the jewels of His crown.”

“Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.”

“The essence of that by which Jesus overcame the world was not suffering, but obedience. Yes, men may puzzle themselves and their hearers over the question where the power of the life of Jesus and the death of Jesus lay; but the soul of the Christian always knows that it lay in the obedience of Christ. He was determined at every sacrifice to do His Father’s will. Let us remember that; and the power of Christ’s sacrifice may enter into us, and some little share of the redemption of the world may come through us, as the great work came through Him.”

DO YOU HAVE THIS KNOWLEDGE???

I personally hate the smell of
the mosquito coil unless i have no choice but to light it up. Now i have my fan brought all the way from home and my ceiling fan fixed, i definitely will never use a mosquito coil already. It is a chemical smoke and bad for one's health for sure even if you have no knowledge of how it works for a mosquito or even human being. The inhalation of mosquito coil smoke can caused selective damage to the lung and liver. The findings from the present study suggest that exposure to the smoke of mosquito coils can pose significant acute and chronic health risks. For example, burning one mosquito coil would release the same amount of P[M.sub.2.5] man as burning 75-137 cigarettes. The emission of formaldehyde from burning one coil can be as high as that released from burning 51 cigarettes!

Epidemiologic studies have shown that tong-term exposure to mosquito coil smoke can induce asthma and persistent wheeze.

Despite the fact that mosquito coil smoke may have many potential adverse health effects, large populations in developing countries still use mosquito coils in their daily lives.

And despite the test im having on tomorrow(which is actually today already, 17 hours to go), it jsut worth me to post this up on blog so that many of you out there realise that how badly can a mosquito coil affect our health. Did some finding from the net and i really like this, it is written by Jotman:

Just how safe are mosquito coils?

Walk down the main street of any tourist-town in Southern Thailand and you will likely find a mosquito coil smoking away under every table in just about every restaurant. The tourist wonders: is mosquito coil smoke hazardous to my health?

Travelers seem to fall into two camps on this issue. Some worry about it and try to avoid the mosquito coil smoke; others dismiss the health concern, considering the smoky coils a prudent precaution to thwart insects and the serious diseases they may harbor, most notably, dengue fever and malaria.

Jotman investigates.

According to a study by UC Riverside scientists, many mosquito coils – most notably those manufactured in Asia – often contain up to one percent BCME (which stands for bis[cloromethyl]ether, a chemical associated with the breakdown of S-2). BCME has been described as “the most potent lung cancer chemical ever discovered.” And lung cancer is just about the most deadly cancer known. In one Chinese factory where mosquito coils were manufactured, a large fraction of employees were dead within five years of starting their jobs. The cause? Lung cancer.

By contrast, no study of cigarettes has ever found tobacco smoke to pose any where near such a high risk. Put it this way: there is no comparison between cigarettes and mosquito coils. Another study -- one that only considered the amount of "small particulate matter" present in mosquito coil smoke (it did not investigate BCME question) -- found the coils to be about 100 times more hazardous to human health than tobacco smoke.

It is illegal to sell mosquito coils in the United States that contain BCME. Nevertheless, Chinese-made mosquito coils that contain BCME have penetrated the US market in recent years.

What to do about the risks associated with mosquito bites; the very real threat of contracting insect-born diseases like dengue and malaria? Mosquito bites can and should be prevented by each individual taking some basic personal precautions:

1. In the evenings or wherever mosquitoes are prevalent during the day, keep your body covered in light-colored clothing and spray insect repellent onto exposed extremities.

2. At night either sleep under a mosquito net, stay in room with well sealed mosquito screens, or sleep in an air-conditioned room.

3. Remember: malaria-bearing mosquitoes strike in the evening and at night. Dengue-carrying mosquitoes can strike at any time.

Burning a mosquito coil while you sleep is not a good idea. Mind you, this is exactly what Thai TV commercials urge the locals to do: one such advertisement shows a group of smiling Thai kids singing about virtues of mosquito coil smoke. Mosquito coils are a big business in Southeast Asia; companies with ties to corrupt governments are not about to let a real health hazard stand in the way of real profits. Whether you are a local, tourist, traveler, or foreign resident of Southeast Asia, it’s better to think for yourself and not blindly follow this mass-media dictated local custom. For as a UC Riverside research team concluded:

In many situations, it seems likely that the reality of mosquito-borne diseases (Mulla et al. 2001) may dominate determination of hypothetical risk:benefit ratios for mosquito insecticides delivered using devices such as coils. However, if BCME were an important environmental contaminant resulting from burning mosquito coils containing S-2, it would be impossible to maintain use given the well-established carcinogenicity of BCME in humans.

Translation: the risks associated with BCME are so incredibly high that even the contribution mosquito coils make towards stemming the world’s worst tropical diseases would not seem to outweigh the hazard.

My conclusion: Mosquito coil smoke is highly toxic to humans and should be avoided.

Another finding:

Toxic effects of mosquito coil - a mosquito repellent

The physical and chemical properties of the mosquito coil, a commonly used mosquito repellent in Asia and South America, were analysed by the Department of Anatomy, Chinese University of Hong Kong, Shatin, NT. The smoke emitted from the burning mosquito coil consists of submicron particles (diameter less than 1 micron) coated with a considerable amount of heavy metals, allethrin and a wide range of organic vapors, such as phenol and o-cresol. Therefore, a lengthy exposure to this smoke will cause adverse effects on the consumers.

for more info: refer to these web site:

http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m0CYP/is_12_111/ai_109567744/

http://www.jotadventure.com/2007/02/just-how-safe-are-mosquito-coils.html

p.s.: i never meant to shout at anyone who is using it but so long as your concern about your health and people around you, starts to think about using it the next time you light it up, think about your health, if you have the symptoms I mentioned above, it might probably cause by the mosquito coil smoke.

Thank You my dear ex roomies

I knew a lil it is gonna be like this, when you smile sek kee!haha....i can figure out a lil...that's why i was wondering why Siow Wie knew all this, she is the one who suppose to be celebrated! ok, its my beloved ex-roomie, Siow Wie's birthday today, somehow they celebrate for mine, belated bday! never expected it could be this sweet and warm. I am so touch when the bday song was sang....and a lil embarrassing too as im not used to the bday song, yet... its been an inveterate habit, tho. Well, anyhow i am so glad you gals made it, and appreciate it so much for this lil sweet celebration...

Hmm...let see...throughout 4 years here in uni dorm, you gals were the only roomies who have the heart to celebrate for me besides Ghing, roomie in year 2. Those was a sweet memories for me and would never deleted in my memory. Thanks to my coursemates too for the wishes.

Thank you guys!

Ouh before i forget...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOW WIE!

From left: Siow Wie, Yi Yew, me and Sek Kee

The lenglui, sweet gal, Siow Wie and I

The funny, strict-morality, hard working gal, Sek Kee and I

The hardworking, quiet, not actually quiet gal, Yi Yew and I

and....me....suprised by the cake with my name on it

Day in RECESS

Throughout my fyp 2, i have been spenting much of my time in RECESS besides staying in room. RECESS is really a great place for a researcher, like what Dr Chan said, RECESS is functioning as a platform for students of all level to meet up, work and discuss. You meet bachelor degree students, master students, and even phd students from various country all over the world. One great thing for me is my wonderful supervisor, a rather thoughtful, caring and humble person. Honestly I never met such great person in my life. Lots of difficulties i faced during fyp, thesis, data analysis, but Dato' just calm me down and said everything will be alright. Sometimes we just need this kinda comfort, maybe for me...just all sort of problem i faced.

My cpu was broken down last night and all my data for the testing has completely gone, I was so stunned when i realised that I cant even turn on the cpu. It was a really terrific scenario i ever encountered. Fortunately the next day, Pn Salina, one of the RECESS laboratory helper assists me in changing to a new one, basically approved everything i needa use. (you know, black and white sometimes took a pretty long time to get things done, so i was totally skipped in this step, praise God). Managed to set things down, finally, and wish everything going smoothly. Presentation for the fyp 2 is gonna held in the next 3 weeks already, i have tons of work to complete, am quite tensed up actually.

Took some photos in RECESS today when finished up my works.

Sze Shan looked blur when the moment snap her :P

Pao and Bee Lin is discussing something...

My Rowe Cell equip

My new (which is actually an old one) cpu

A group of students from all levels.

Meeting Room in RECESS

Some students analysing their thesis

My supervisor, Prof. Dato' Dr. Ismail and I.

Friends of my batch, En Amir(lab assistance) and 'pengajar'

Pn Salina and Mr 'pengajar' (sorry cant remember your name:P)

p.s.: i Love RECESS as much as i love the people there!

Cherish yourself with The Secret

From The Secret Daily Teachings

Our natural state of being is joy, and it takes so much energy to think negative thoughts, to speak negative words, and to feel miserable. The easy path is good thoughts, good words, and good deeds.
Take the easy path.

May the joy be with you,Rhonda ByrneThe Secret... bringing joy to billions

Quality is not an act. It is a habit

Genius is one percent inspiration and 99 percent perspiration

Eerie

i dun have time to blog but i must say this....

I have been rather busy for completing the thesis, assignment, projects, homework...and now am quite not in the mood to care for other stuff already...while i was so busy with all this stuff, there's these guys, strange guys who txt me and asked to go out for this and that...kinda like a date? ouh please, i just dont understand why these people are soooo darn free to 'patoh' in uni, i dont even have enough time for a proper meal, even when i was eating or sometime watching cartoon, my mind was thinking of my research! its annoying...i just dont used to say 'no' yet. (im learning hard)....so forgive me if i find excuses to hint u for the word 'no'...i wish you ppl werent here tonight! stay away from me please!!!!

Words for you...

Be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and try to live the questions themselves as if they were locked room or books written in a very foreign languege.

Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them.

And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now...and perhaps then, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into your answers.

看到烦人的动物时，你可以向它说佛法。

看到烦人的动物时，你可以向它说佛法:

XX动物，我现在就跟你皈依：-
皈依佛 – 不堕地狱
皈依法 – 不堕饿鬼
皈依憎 – 不堕畜牲
皈依佛竟，皈依法竟 ，皈依憎竟。

皈依教它发四弘誓愿：-
1。 众生无边誓愿度
2。 烦恼无尽誓愿短
3。法门 无量誓愿学
4。佛道无上誓愿成

这样对它每句 念三遍，念完后就对它开示。

XX动物，我现在为你皈依，你就不要再来给我们麻烦，如果是有什么差错，就不好再怪我们了。

白蚂蚁公，母，子，孙，哥，嫂，你们前辈子没修行，才会当白蚂蚁，你们都是佛弟子，你们要念佛，念阿弥陀佛，求愿往生极乐世界，才不用当白蚂蚁，不然几千年还是白蚁身。 佛在世时，看一只蚂蚁，非常痛苦，我现在念给你们，你们也跟着我念；请释迦末尼佛，阿弥陀佛，观世音菩萨，龙天护法，将这些白蚂蚁皆带出去。

你若更功夫，若会持大悲咒，念一些大悲咒水，帮他们漉净，这些白蚂蚁不用三天就全部跑。

Missing My Old Time In MGSS

Everyone has gone to bed already at this hour...not sleepy so grabbed the prosperity burger from McD and sitting all alone in the living room watching Princess and The Frog, it wasnt too bad, only thing is it has so much of singing part which almost make me fall asleep....somehow, i picked up my phone and starts browsing the net. Open up facebook page and pause at the 'search' column...then a name appeared in my mind: Wendy Chan. Somehow i miss her already. I miss the time when we were working hard decorating the hall during school annual sports day. We were from Yellow house-always the wining team!*proud proud* hehe. There has a brown old grand piano in the hall where we used to play some sentimental song whenever we free and met up especially during sports day. She is very good either in academic or sports. Throughout 5 years in Mgss, she was in first class and was the MGSS's best runner in spring event...we both represented Malacca district in 100m, 200m, 4x100m and so on....and i really miss the time when we trained so hard at the back of the school's field, resting under the huge tree which has over 100 years of history. chatting and sharing thoughts. Though she was 3 years younger than me but we really can mingle round. thought so* lol...cant stand her proud 'heng' sometimes also. Being so smart in studies, so good in piano, so cool in sports, and very pretty some more...of course will be proud a lil right?hah... hope u dont read this!lol you're so perfect to me! and im very proud of you. no doubt. In year 2003 after i left MGSS in form 5, we hardly keep in touch already till oneday when my male friend in form 6 asked me bout the god sister wendy, then only by that we starts keeping up a lil and glad that trough facebook i can know if your doin good by viewing at your photos...

Wendy and I-MGSS Sports Day 2003

Wendy and our senior (on the left side is Wendy's cousin, Sheerena Thein-wearin cap)

Athletic Chaptain of MGSS in Year 2003

Me-very dark uh?

MGSS Girl Guides

Me and my partner in 4x100m event

Michelle Teoh, Shereena, Me and god sis,Grace in Year 2001

Never forget to mention Grace, my good and favourite friend, lil god sister. lol she can sing pretty good in RAP song! R&B...whatever she is real cool. Michelle is another leng lui in MGSS, most of the MGSSian couldnt speaked very well in mandarin as they were brought up in Eng edu, so thats also the only time we were force to speak in english and you'll get used to it when people laugh at your wrong spoken one or your wrong pronunciation or grammer or whatever and correct it for you. Its embarrassing but somehow you learn and dare not repeat it again. Some of'em even laugh at you so loud like nobody's business. darn!haha...its just some memories of mine back in MGSS.

Dreams

TOok a long nap this afternoon. I dream of a person, the one very close to me, no idea why u appeared in my dream,never thought of you before i sleep as we were too close.....from the moment i fall asleep till the moment i wake, the entire story was all bout me and you. haha...that was funny. my table and bed in the dorm was shift back to the old place which i do not really like it.(It moved itself). When i open the door, find it has another one to open and then i saw a place where it is completely strange, and i shut then open again, there go another scene...you pull me out and said lets see whats the place look like, then we explored...now there were 3 of us...and suddenly you hold my hand, not a tight one but you trying hard not to let it go...we were all alone now and clinging to each other, very sweet....and we went into a museum...its iron bridge museum how cool!...then you kept holding my hand as we walked, its embarrassing but you seems ok with it...and its so warm, my fingers were all freezing. Then we returned to the door, back to the dorm, and i was studying now, you were besides me...and i fall asleep again, you lean your head towards mine, we were so close that i can hear you were listening to Doin' Just Fine.

p.s.: It was so sad that you weren't that thoughtful and sweet in real. In fact, you were too cold towards me that we can hardly have a conversation.

Wish could have that Magic door.

Your the One

Simple and nice...spot the front kitchen?feng shui said its gonna be at the back one so renovate it! lol

Gonna have U in NO time! ouh...a L shape garage can be constructed at the side, must be awesome then! hehe

Doin' Just Fine

1. Had the breakfast there, had the lunch there, had some KFC packed back for dinner, everyone has already in the hall except me, rushed there with my laptop on, all of you were watching me, about 50 of you, listening to me, and couple of days later, some of you met me and called my name, 'hi sinmei' and gave me a strange smile and somehow i felt you treated me the different way as before, I am glad.

2. You choose me instead of her, you need me and we had a good chat at night, I am glad you are here with me. I have to really appreciate this moment.

3. You were sick, I am so sorry I didnt know that. I hope your ok now and I am sure you are.

4. I am sad because you dint know how important you are to me. I hope you will never know, its contradicting.

5. I will be strong and work hard, but I am just lazy.

6. As long as doin' just fine, I will pull through.

My wish

I really hope that everyday is today...

Thoughtful

Have you ever recieve a note that pasted on your desk and its written: "Just wake me if you need any help in the middle of the night" especially when your all sick....body is arching, and no way to get up but lie on the bed for the whole day....I am really impressed when i saw this note sticked on one of my roomie's table, joo pasted on suan's. Thats really thoughtful of u joo. Tho some ppl always recieved them but well...i think it is very special.

Listing

I realised that its been a practice since I came back to campus. Due to my well arranged schedule by the faculty, I've few hours free in the morning, so every early morning, before running for some places; I would sit down infront of my desk and starts listing on the Post-it to make sure I've done the whole activities listed for each day. Its been keeping me well organised and the best and happy moment is when I came back to room, before prepare for the next day...the entire activities have been carried out and no any delay.

Try to list out things before you forget and make sure you carry out each activity, it is really encouraging to see you've accomplished without delaying your works.

Strange and funny

Heres a lil funny thing i encountered tonight...
While having my dinner, there comes a guy, i knew him through my ex-roomie but can hardly see him, met him twice like only 'hi' or 'bye'....then he walked towards me and point his finger towards his lips, as if my mouth has got some dirt...'opss...you means....i haven finished my conversation and he interupted "do you put any lip balm or lipstick? "No! no of course! i never!"..."Why your lips are always so red?"...deng...what do you expect me to answer?

Glad

Somehow i feel so warm tonight, I am very glad tonight and i felt extremely happy. Reasons? no...nothing...just after talking to mum on the phone I felt so alive...Everything i see is a smile...roomie's face reflected back to me with a charming smile...everything i sense tonight are just SOH colourful...lol thats very weird, I did nothing...read few pages of articles, prepared for tomorrow's class and lab to attend...let see....i have an idea....why not organise a SMILE SOCIETY in the uni just to teach the students to smile?ahah...i'll think about it then:)

Smile like them!

Jokes

"Our daughter took the afternoon off from her job at the funeral home to visit her daughter in preschool. When one of the kids asked what she did for living, my granddaughter answered for her:" She sells underground furniture".

-By Sonja Barbot-

How to recycle?

How well do you understand about recycle?
Lazy to collect and bring over to recycling area?
Find no place for recycling?
FInd no recycle bin?

What you, we all can do is simply

REDUCE OUR DAILY CONSUMPTION!

FOod...

Durian Soup, very nice but unhealthy

look at the lunch i made in the campus...my favourite boiled potato and sweet potato

Taste better when black pepper is added, taste even nicer if you spread butter and cheese on it.

my lunch for today, vege pizza+coleslaw+mushroom soup+garlic bread